Thoughts On Trusting


Hello all,

It’s been a few weeks now since my last post, so I thought it might be time for an update. First of all I want to thank everyone for the overwhelming amount of encouragement, support and prayers that have flooded in since I have been dealing with these vocal issues. I have been very moved and humbled by your kindness. Thank you very much!
For those of you who don’t know, I have been having some issues recently with my voice. You can read a letter I wrote in a previous post  “I THINK I’M LEARNING SOMETHING ABOUT IDENTITY, WHICH WEAVES INTO CALLING WHICH THEN BECOMES OUR LEGACY.”  if you want to get a little more caught up with what’s been going on, but here’s the short version. A few weeks ago my voice was giving out while I was singing, so I saw a throat doctor and a voice specialist to see if we could figure out the problem. After they sent a video camera up my nose and another down my throat they saw a small bump of swelling on my vocal chord. These bumps are referred to as vocal polyps, and they are no good. Both the specialist and the doctor advised me that I should go on vocal rest for two weeks to see if the swelling would go down. That meant no singing and no talking for two whole weeks. I was also given some steroids to see if they would help. I was excited about them until they informed me that these weren’t the kind that make you buff.

The first few days of no talking were pretty hard. My family had to adjust to it. There were definitely a few tears from my 2 year old, Penelope. We heard the question “Daddy talk now?” too many times to count. After the first few days, though it was still difficult, we started settling into a rhythm. Penelope started getting used to asking Mallory (my wife) what I was trying to say, though the questions about when I would talk again never stopped. I would type into my phone and let a robot voice speak for me. There is this iPhone app where you can even download famous people’s voices to talk for you. Hearing a robotic version of George W. Bush telling the band they did a good job was worth at least a few hours of silence.

This past Monday marked 15 days of no talking and was also the day I had my check up to see if things were healing. After another video camera went down my throat they saw that the polyp was still there. Like most health issues, it takes some time to pin point the exact cause of these kinds of things, and starting with the least invasive procedures is usually the best way to go. So leaving surgery as a last resort, we decided on doing some vocal exercises and light talking for the next few days to see if things stayed the same or got worse. This morning I had another check up to see how things were going. After another look with the camera we saw that the polyp on my left vocal chord had been hitting the opposite spot on my right vocal chord resulting in some light hemorrhaging, or bleeding. Again, this is not a good sign, and should things continue down this path, surgery will be the next option.

This season has had its share of stormy weather, but not without some silver linings. I’ve been thinking about the idea of trust. Specifically trusting God. Innumerable times in the Jesus followers life there is a decision to trust or to fear. To trust or to be anxious. To trust or to get angry. To trust or to take things into your own hands. Trust is an essential building block in any healthy relationship. In many ways, trusting God is the same as loving Him. I have been asking myself, what does trusting God really mean to me? How does it actually play out in my mind, in my heart, and in my life? It’s an easy enough thing to say. “God I trust You. Of course I do. You’re God and I’m not.” But when push comes to shove, and plans change, and uncertainty overshadows, what really wins in our hearts: trust or fear?
I am realizing that when I have said in the past that I trust God, what I was really saying was that I trust what He can do. This may just be me, but I immediately would think, I trust His power. I trust His strength. I trust His authority. But in the quiet and stillness of the last few weeks I have been hearing something different. I’ve been hearing God say, “Trust ME”. Obviously to trust God is to trust that He has all power, strength, and authority, but making the difference between trusting the power and the ONE who is powerful is changing the way I trust God.

Think about the most trustworthy person in your life. Someone who is going to be there for you. Maybe a parent or a spouse or a friend. When you trust them with a secret no one else knows, when you trust that they are going to do their best to come through for you, you are not trusting their abilities as much as you are trusting them. Their hearts and their character. They have proven they are worthy of your trust. Now multiply all that proof of character, all that reason for trusting by a million and add infinity to it, and you start to get close to where God is, and why we can trust Him so completely.
Trusting God is much more than believing He can do miracles. It’s trusting HIM! And who is HE? Well, we have the whole Bible, the Holy Spirit, and all of creation to start to answer that question, but let’s start here. God is love. God is so much love that He created a whole universe and put people in it to give love to. He is so much love that when we turned our backs on Him He didn’t turn His back on us. He chased us to the point of sending His son Jesus to us, to redeem us and make us completely His again. God is so much love that He chooses to forgive our past and welcomes us into a future of life and joy and peace and hope. God loves us so much that He welcomes us into His family, adopted and set free from guilt, from shame, from brokeness. He has totally restored our relationships with Himself, others, and the rest of creation!…and I am only scratching the surface.
This is the God we trust, and if He is for us then who can be against us? The more we get to know Him, His faithfulness, mercy, and goodness, the more reason we find to trust Him no matter what we may face. I find that as I hope in Him instead of His ability my prayer goes from “Lord, heal me” to “Lord, I believe You have all power and authority to heal me and I pray that You would if it’s Your will, but If it’s Your will that I should go through that which seems most difficult then I trust You through it and ask that You would be glorified and revealed in it all.”

1 Thessalonians 5:18 holds a command that seems near impossible to fulfill.
It says, “Give thanks in ALL (emphasis mine) circumstance, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
I am finding that as my idea of trusting God is shifting, my ability to obey this command has inched a little bit closer to fulfillment.

I actually got to sing a few songs today for the doctors who are helping me out. They wanted to hear how my voice was doing and they asked if I could sing them a few songs right there in the office. So I got out my guitar and sang “True Love” and “This Is Amazing Grace” as best I could. Both of these songs are about Jesus and the cross and How we have salvation through Him. It was in that moment that I was aware of how little I know and how much God is in control. To trust Him and His plans and His promises is the most beautiful and freeing way to live.
As we keep going through the process of getting my voice back to 100% I humbly ask for your continued prayers. Prayers of healing, for we believe that our God has the power to do so! Prayers of wisdom for the Doctors, and prayers for God to be glorified and revealed through this.




63 thoughts on “Thoughts On Trusting

  1. Kevin Haglund

    I’ve been dealing with my vocal polyp for 4 months now and will be having surgery to remove it on May 12th. I know exactly what you’re going through and about identity and trust that you learn when you go through such a trying time that impacts your life and ministry so greatly. Praying for your healing!

  2. Melanie

    I’m a worship leader and have been going through some challenges too. Tendinitis or something like that in my left hand. So right now I can’t play the guitar. God is teaching me so much about trust. It isn’t always easy, but it’s the only way to really live and to make it though the storms of life. Praying for you for complete healing and restoration.

    1. melonie

      This is so interesting cuz I’m a worship leader too! And we share the ssame name! :O
      My heart goes out to you, i play guitar too.
      Just said a prayer for you :)

  3. Natalie

    Beautiful!!! Perhaps the whole point of this was to share your songs with those health care providers! Following your progress and continued prayers!

  4. Theresa Hampton

    My thoughts and prayers to you and to your family during this time. Your music was a big influence to me as I was coming back to church this past fall. I hope for a speedy recovery for you and for the Lord to continue to bless you as you have blessed so many others.

  5. Bradley Watson

    I could not even begin to imagine what you’re going through, but I am praying every day for you and the people closest to you , that you all may have peace and comfort though all of this. I met you back In October. Let me say that out of all the “famous” worship leaders. I’ve never seen or met anyone who is as humble and real and true in their faith as you are. I want you to know , you’re making a difference in my life through just your words. Your songs have always spoke to me in a very deep spiritual way , but reading your letters to everyone has spoken to me , and revealed to me things I probably would’ve never realized or even thought about in my entire life. You are a true follower of Christ and I know he has huge plans for you through all of this. Keep trusting!!!

  6. Jackie Wiley

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us. That is powerful! Your strength through all of this is truly amazing. You are such and inspiration and an encouragement! You have an amazing voice and your songs are powerful and speak volumes. Psalm 37:5 says “God has a reason for allowing things to happen. We may never understand His wisdom, but we simply have to trust His will.” Keep leaning on that. I will continue to pray for your complete healing. May God bless you always!

  7. Jenni

    Praying for. So very excited to know that God is in control and we have nothing to fear:)thank you for keeping us updated .

  8. Cindy

    Phil – prayers continue. Your story, your writing, your songs are such inspiration. Your story as told in this latest chapter makes me stop dead in my tracks about the “trust” thing. This is huge in my life right now as well – you are so very transparent which I love. You have a great attitude – you come out to the Joyce Meyer conference in Sacramento (which I attended), and still lip synced along with your brother and band – AMAZING. You never stop –

    God Bless you and I pray for healing. God is so good to us – I pray for His healing on you and the doctor’s wisdom and discernment in your situation.

  9. Sandy

    Keep looking up. God will sustain and heal. We serve a mighty God. Who knows why God allowed this at this time. Can’t wait for more songs and a stronger Phil.

  10. Sean tighe

    Reading this reminded me so much of the chorus to “When my heart is torn asunder” And the beauty of the promise that our God gives. no matter what happens during this life we still have the glorious assurance that we will always be alive, and though these bodies may be temporary we are forever. I’m praying for your continued healing and comfort during this trial. May the day come swiftly when you can bless others with your phenomenal voice as you have already. God bless you Phil.

  11. Peggy Gregory

    I pray all will be ok for you. Sure would miss your voice if you could no longer sing! God will provide a way for you to continue to honor and glorify Him through your singing. Glad you are home with your family though. Was worried how that was going with all your travels and concerts. God Bless.

  12. Marilyn

    Oh Phil! You are so right! I will continue asking our tender Father for His healing for your wonderful voice. Thank you for Acension! Thank you for singing your heart out to God. Prayers for your dear Penelope and Mallory!

  13. melonie

    My heart just goes out to you. I’ve heard of other artists (like Matthew West for example) who had to undergo surgery for their voice. They fear their voice won’t sound the same, or as good. But usually they sound very much the same in the end, even better than before!

    In my opinion (and I dunno if you’ll ever read this but I’m just putting it out there) God has blessed you with this voice and your songs and work, and I believe He will continue to. I don’t believe He’s finished w/ your music just yet. 😉 So I’m totally w/ you and your decision to trust that God will work it out, and you’ll get your voice back good as new, and continue to bless peoples hearts. You’ve certainly blessed mine.
    You came to my church summer camp a few years back and I was sooo blessed, I wrote a worship song to God as I listened to you in my seat.
    And every time you’re at a Harvest crusade or at Harvest church, I wanna cry tears of joy. Your passion is God-given. And you’ve inspired me so much. Hang in there, we’re all w/ you, and most importantly, so is God.


  14. Paula

    I just happened to see this tweet tonight! I believe God wanted me to read it! My voice has been hoarse since 1984 and recently I am having issues with swallowing food and getting choked and can’t even sing anything! I love worship but I am not a professional singer…just a regular churchgoer who loves to worship the King! I am going to get re-Checked because this is not normal! I am trusting God with you and believing Papa God for a miracle! For I know He is faithful! There is no one like our God! It’s always His will to heal! (Can you tell I go to bethel?!

  15. Janel

    Thank you for sharing, truly!! Last year I walked through learning more about trust. Trust is powerful. We will spend a lifetime learning more and more about it here. When we get to meet Jesus, face-to-face, is the day we will fully understand trust!
    If you don’t mind, I would like to quote from your blog? It was so well written. God is using more than your vocal chords.
    I am praying God’s amazing will, direction, protection, and love in your life and your family!

  16. Susan


    I messaged you a few weeks ago when I found out you were having trouble. I’m a voice specialist in the Charlotte, NC area. I had a vocal polyp and reactive nodule removed in 2000. I am a singer and was I’m grad school for speech therapy at the time. You will recover! Just be sure you have the best doc and a voice specialist you really jive with. It makes all the difference! God used that situation for me to help so many others with voice problems in an intuitive, been there-done that way! I will continue to pray for your healing! God bless!

  17. Amy H

    I had the rare privilege, Phil, of meeting you and singing back up as part of the Worship Team when you sang at Lakewood Church the first time. Your humble spirit and genuine heart for God impressed me then, and your transparency and willingness to share this journey into unknown territory with your fans impresses me as well. Thank you for allowing God to use you – through your talents, your music, and through the platform He has given you to share of His love and those things He is whispering to your heart As He walks you through this challenging time. I pray for His perfect timing regarding your healing, and that you will hear everything He has to say to your heart throughout this journey! I believe you will emerge on the other side of this with a deeper understanding of the Savior you love and serve! May God bless you richly :)

  18. Stacey Bartell

    I would discourage surgery, Julie Andrews lost her voice to surgery, the scarring.
    I would encourage prayer, Andrew Wommack laid hands and prayed for me and I was healed in 3 weeks. I had 2 large nodules on my chords, and the doctors gave me a year before they would get smaller.
    Praise to God our Healer!

  19. Elizabeth

    Thank you for sharing such a candid, inspirational reflection on your trust journey. I pray for not only your physical healing, but that you may grow ever stronger in trusting God the person beyond God the power. Over the last four years God has brought me through valleys and mountaintop experiences in my faith life related to family loss, and through those experiences helped me to find a voice and begin learning to trust. Your music ministry has been a part of this journey for me. Thank you for blessing us with your gifts.

  20. Peg Cassaday

    I can’t imagine how hard it must be for you & your family. As we know trials are part of Christianity, there is a reason for this trial & you may never know that reason, a test of faith, time with God, time with family? Yet I don’t think the reason is as important as leaning on God through this trial. Reading your story I hear faith trust & learning, I heard quiet time with God” Be Still & Know I Am God”. You will get through this that there is no doubt, the thing I heard that is the hardest thing of all is to completely let go & leave it in God’s hands when we are able to let go & give it to God so that his will be done brings such peace. I hear that peace in your story. Stay strong stay patient & God bless.

  21. Amanda

    I’ve been following your story ever since you were diagnosed with vocal problems. It has been an inspiration for my worship team at church. But I didn’t expect to come down with an illness myself short after. This is so relevant, two days ago I may have contracted sinus infection that causes my ear to feel blocked, which causes pain behind eye and inner ear. Never happened to me before, and I prayed to God to take it away, just because I know he can, when I started to feel anxious about my hearing ability. I’m learning to Trust in his goodness and sovereignity no matter how long it will take for me to get healed. You said Trusting God is more than trusting he can do miracles. Im not gonna lie, I wanted a miracle (I’m usually not prone to praying for miracles but my anxiety made me desperate). Then I asked myself, if he doesn’t choose to heal me then and there, will my trust falter? Made me realize how little my faith can be. This article came in due time. I have listened to your music for quite some time now, a constant inspiration, and I pray your voice gets better!

  22. Bob

    Hi Phil ,
    Thanks for sharing your struggle, loosing your voice will become a Gateway to hear His. Perhaps it a season for Him to sing over you . I love to hear your worship in fact I went to a recent JM event in sac cause I heard you were providing the Worship. I sort of felt a little of how difficult it must have been to hold back. You reminded me if a Philly on a race track with rope tied to its legs . You are an amazingly gifted artist who loves Jesus and my prayer is that you receive the full potential of Jesus in a most tenuous trial. A bit of Spurgeon…
    Never shall you come into such a position that Christ cannot aid you. No pinch shall ever arrive in your spiritual affairs in which Jesus Christ shall not be equal to the emergency, for your history has all been foreknown and provided for in Jesus.

    With many prayers for full recovery,

    Pastor Bob
    The Bride Church – Yuba City Ca

  23. Jenni

    Thank you for sharing your story… I’m in tears as it reminds me of my own story of trusting in the battle. I’m not a musician and I haven’t lost my voice. I’m a mom who homeschools my kids and works from home. My husband lost his job last summer and we have been on a new adventure of TRUST… and the incredible DEPTH of God’s character revealed has been overwhelming to me. His faithfulness. His grace. His mercy. His love. You hit it right on… we trust HIM. And this King I trust has proven over and over to be a God who takes the incredible ugly and makes it beautiful… and this is the story we have to share.

    Your song, “This is Amazing grace” has really struck a chord with me… and every time I hear it, I think of this battle you are in. You are prayed for… keep telling your story, His story. If we don’t share the ugly, we can’t share the beautiful.

  24. Azul

    Hola Philwickham, eres una bendicion para mi y para mi familia, especialmente para mi hija la mayor por ella te conoci y desde q supimos lo q te pasa le hemos estado pidiendo a Dios por ti te deceamos pronta recuperacion estamos pasando por problemas difíciles y las palabras que has puesto hoy han levantado mi espíritu.Sin duda q hasta en estos momentos DIos te sigue usando, seguiremos orando y Dios se glorificara es esto amen.

  25. Jane Mato

    I will continue to pray for you. Thank you for the updates. I listen to your music all the time. It inspires me and reminds me of how wonderful Jesus is! God Bless you Phil!

  26. sharon

    As I read the words you so aptly have said, I think of the song that we used to sing in church when I was a child, “Trust and obey for there is no other way to be happy in Jesus but to trust and obey”… be encouraged Phil for the Bible also says that by His stripes we are healed…healing is part of why God sent His only Son..
    Am sending you all the Love that Christ enables me to have….in Jesus Name I pray for you, Amen


  27. Holly Hamilton Little Rock AR.

    Hi Phil,
    My son and I were able to meet you this year at the Joyce Meyer conference in little rock ar. You signed his bible and left a huge mark through your faith and music on him. I told you about my son who was born with half of a heart. I told you how your music kept me focused in times of affliction on God. The first song in particular while I was pregnant was Safe! There are many many more. I love your last post because you recognize one of the most important things about our relationship with Christ. I named my son Trusten. As in proverbs 3:5! I encourage you to read our story. Remember, through our afflictions, Gods power shines through us, if we will Trust!!!! Facebook Trusting God with Trusten’s Heart!

    Trusting God WITH YOU that His will be done and His name be glorified through you!

  28. David Henners

    AMEN brother! I wanted to share a story with you that happened a few years ago. It involved me learning to trust God on a much deeper level than I ever had before. I am an architect by profession and never thought I would entertain the idea of being out of work. How wrong I was. In the fall of 2008, I was consulting for a firm and they were forced to let me go. This was during the time of the economic crisis. I wasn’t that concerned at first because I was certain a new job would come along in a month or so. Well, the job, despite sending out dozens of resumes to different firms, never came. I began to fear, and this fear escalated into anxiety and numerous panic attacks. I prayed to God asking him to provide me with a job. The job still didn’t come and so my prayer went something like this “God, why me? Why is this happening to me? Have you abandoned me?” When I look back on this struggle, I think of Job and how he thought that God had abandoned him also. However, God didn’t abandon him, and was there with Him through the turmoil, even though Job felt alone. Due to the fear and anxiety that I was experiencing, I didn’t trust God, because I thought my problem was too big for him. How foolish I was. Eventually, my prayer changed to “God your will be done in your time.” I was finally able to hand over control and learn to trust God in a way that I never thought possible. The fear and anxiety that I had been experiencing began to subside. The job still didn’t come. Nevertheless, I remained steadfast to God and kept praying “God your will be done in your time.” About 14 or so months into my struggle, God provided the first of several miracles. Due to the fact that my wife and I were only earning half our normal income, we were not making it financially. We received a call out of the blue from a pastor friend of ours (my wife is also a pastor) offering us a rent free town home. It’s funny, because instead of thanking God for His divine intervention, I questioned how nice the place would be. My wife and I visited the place and we were absolutely knocked off our feet by what we saw. I felt so ashamed of myself for the way I reacted beforehand. After our visit to the town home, we were driving and I saw the face of Christ in the sky with a cross on his forehead – another sign that this was God’s doing. AMEN to that! Well, still without a job (and feeling extremely humbled by now), we moved into the town home. About a month or so after we moved in, I applied for a job ten blocks from our new home. We only had one car and so this was the perfect opportunity, But, again, I prayed “God your will be done in your time.” A few months passed and then I got a call from a gentleman telling me that I had come second out of the 40 applicants that applied for the job and that the person selected for the job had declined the offer due to commuting issues. He asked me if I was still interested in taking it. I alm

  29. Kelli

    wow this is so encouraging! i love the part were the doctors ask you to play some song, im praying if they dont already know Jesus , that it moved them to! #GLORYTOGOD#heisdefusingyouphilforhisglory#youneverknowhowhewilldoit#Jesusissocool!

  30. Artice

    Many prayers and in tears from the truth written in this post. Can’t begin to explain how each and every one of your albums has been a blessing in my life. The Ascension from beginning to end is God-breathed: I mean right from heaven and so encouraging. God’s will be done through our many trials. We don’t always understand how/why we suffer and it’s never convenient for the plans we have for ourselves, but thank God we’re not in control. We can’t have a testimony without a test: with your talent and perseverance through this season, so many amazing songs and revelations will come about to just help continue building God’s kingdom. Well wishes brother.

  31. Donna

    I am rejoicing with tears of joy as I read about the revelations God is giving you of His amazing character. I am overwhelmed with joy as I see the numbers of people who are watching your journey as well. I am praying specifically that the Lord raises up other bothers and sisters who will lift you in prayer both in this wonderful wilderness season and the one that is coming. I pray that ypur territory (influence) increases as your heart is conformed even more into the image of the Father’s.

  32. Andrea

    God has truly used you through your voice and your songs to be a blessing. With your words above, He is using you to touch lives in a mighty way! I read your update because I have been praying for your healing; I never expected that in reading you’re padre that I would be healed and inspired. How good our God is to bring beauty and grace out of pain and uncertainty. God has a plan for you in all if this (Jeremiah 29:11) and His light is still shining through you! May Gods blessings be upon you and your family. You are in my prayers!

  33. laurin

    What a perfect day to be silent as we remember Jesus’ silence before His accusers. Out of silence came resurrection. I am praying for God’s trustworthy resurrection power to restore your voice and to give you a new song in your heart! And in the meantime, thank you for sharing what you are learning in the silence.

  34. Rick W.

    Phil, Thank you for ‘openly’ sharing your trial and what God is doing thru it. I am a dad who’s son at an early age named you as his ‘favorite’. One of my fondest memories is my son texting me as he is riding in the car with “Phil Wickham” to the airport!!) Some 6-7 years later, you still are. I was/am so thankful…for your Christ-driven ‘music, from a young artist, filled with pointing to Jesus, Heaven, and focusing on Gods Greatness. I, too, have been so touched and encouraged by your music. And now, this trial, may the Lord bless you (and yours) and to His Glory pour out Himself thru you. Looking forward to ‘what God does with/thru this…’ May His Loving Mercy envelope your whole family, may He keep you close to Himself and strengthen you {us} and fill you for what lies ahead. May He heal many, touch many… “In Your Name Lord Jesus”

  35. Alyson

    I can’t imagine a trial of this sort as I have no talents as beautiful as your voice & song writing ability. We don’t know God’s purpose but His ways are higher and better than ours & sometimes we never learn the purpose of trials. Other times, we see the purpose much later. Perhaps you’re going through this as a test of your own trust & faith; or it could be to witness to these doctors/medical staff that are working with you. Maybe it is even for another person in your life to learn something/grow in faith. Regardless, we (brothers & sisters in Christ) will continue to pray for you. In the meantime, I am sure you are writing more beautiful songs to sing WHEN you are healed! God bless you!

  36. Oden Fong

    I Just found out about this today, Phil (day before Resurrection Day) . We will pray fervently for you (and the family) and have our family of prayer warriors pray also, believing for your compete healing and recovery. Other friends have gone through this same thing and come out completely whole! It’s a valley, but I love the depth that you are being taken into. You’ll be more buff spiritually!

  37. Elijah Nelson

    Hey Phil, I heard about the vocal issues on the radio and was moved to pray for you. I have been deeply moved by your music in my life. I have been going through a similar thing with my vocal cords as well as of late and have been resting. Thanks for your updates they are very encouraging and life giving. thanks for your worship:) and I know God is growing you so close to himself through this. james 1:2-4. ill keep praying. bless you brother

  38. Barbara

    Phil.GOD SAID,”Speek to your mountain to be cast into yonder sea and it shall be done.For its not by might nor by spirit but by MY SPIRIT SAYTH THE LORD.Do you believe this?

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  40. Junko Cheng

    Thank you, Phil, for the honest blog. I’m praying for the surgery to go well next week and that you will recover fully. Once you do, PLEASE contact Seth Riggs at He helped Stevie Wonder recover after his vocal nodes and worked with Michael Jackson, Michael Bolton, Natalie Cole, and countless others. You don’t have to suffer through this ever again if you learn Seth’s method of singing without strain–yet with more power. I am a professional singer and a worship leader at Saddleback Church (I just worked with Jyro LaVilla for the sunrise service) and have benefited greatly from Speech Level Singing after suffering for so many years. I am one of his certified instructors, but I would defer to Seth with regard to your vocal health. We need you to continue blessing us with your music!

  41. Jason Cork


    I first heard you at Calvary Chapel St. Pete for their youth conference. I got to see you when you were in CT a few weeks ago.

    I’m actually having surgery on Wednesday to remove a polyp on my vocal cords. I am a worship leader here in CT, and have been struggling for several months. I’m happy to know there is a fix. I really miss singing.

    But I am thankful for the process that the Lord has taken me through, as I’m sure you are too. God bless you in your ministry as you continue to serve him.

  42. Sharne Finn Osborne

    Praying with you and trusting God for a miraculous work. Thank you for being faithful with your gift. You have blessed me immensely. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing the journey with us.

  43. Becky Harling

    Great thoughts, Phil! I write books and my next one comes out in September. It’s called The 30 Day Praise Challenge For Parents. It’s a devotional guide for parents teaching them to praise God over their children’s lives. Each day has songs that I recommend the reader listen to as they praise God. “This is Amazing Grace” is one of the songs I recommend in the book. So thankful for you and all you do! Praying millions download that song and that God heals and blesses you beyond what you can imagine. Becky Harling

  44. Stephanie Boardman

    Ahh, bless you brother!! God indeed has blessed me and so many others through you’re ministry. You’re voice and songs are absolutely pure and anointed. Thank You for your music and passion for the Lord. Please know that I’m praying for you and you’re family!! God is so incredibly faithfull and WILL use this for His Glory.

    Be blessed,


  45. John Doe

    Hello Phil Wickham
    As I read this post, I want to say that God has used you through this blog to glorify himself.
    And yes, the thing is-any art form, whether it be drawing,singing, whatever it may be…only attains its value or beauty because of the individual behind it.
    Lets say we had a singing robot, no matter how beautiful the mechanical voice, it wouldnt move us. Why? Because humans are moved by something deeper than that, as you said, God-and our place within that.
    So…you are right, you are not your artforms, the artforms ONLY have meaning because of the people behind them, and the artist him/herself is what bestows the value to the artform, not the other way around.
    God gave life to dust and made man, dust is dust without the spirit God places inside him. In the same way, writing, singing-whatever it may be, is dust without it reflecting a soul, a spirit, etc. And the soul, spirit etc-in the same way God gave value to creation, creation itself is what gives value to creation’s very own creations.
    God bless

  46. Rick Ponzo

    Grace & Peace Phil! My wife Cheryl worked at Maranatha Chapel and we watched as you grew into the man and musician you are today. You have the gifts and talents of both of your parents! I tell you that because I want you to know that we both see more than a singer and musician when we look at you. Both you and Evan have a joy for life and community that exudes the anointing of God on your life. Whatever the situation, God will use it for His glory, and to bless you at the same time. Praying for a quick recovery, but even more for you to experience all that God wants to do in and through your life through this apparent adversity. I also pray that God will place His desires in your heart as you delight in Him! (Psalm 37:4)

  47. Mercy

    With every storm I face, I find a greater grace that pulls me deeper into Your heart. That’s what came to my mind after reading your blog Phil. I love listening to your songs and your brother’s. You have blessed me with your songs as I always sense an intimacy between you and God in them. I have put you in my prayers and I pray that this test pulls you deeper into His heart. God’s blessings to you and your family.

  48. Bernice Angoh Lakota

    My dear friend and brother in Christ. You are healed in the mighty name of Jesus. It is His will that ye may be healthy for it is written “Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.” 3 John 1:2

    Isaiah 53:4-5 “Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.
    5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.”

    Galatians 3:13 “Christ hath redeemed us from the curse of the law, being made a curse for us: for it is written, Cursed is every one that hangeth on a tree.”

    You see? it is His will that you be healed. Only the thief comes to steal, destroy and kill John 10:10, to steal your voice, destroy your vocal cords etc but He came that we might have life in abundance. It is well with you in the name of Jesus. Receive your healing and join me in praising God for your next Album will be, as they say, off the chain!

    Your sister in Christ and servant of the Lord,

    Bernice Angoh Lakota

  49. Janice Cloyd

    God’s Blessings… You are remarkable! God please keep Phil in your loving arms seeing him through this and your precious blood of healing upon him. Thank you almighty King for the Holy Spirits guidance and sustaining Grace… In Jesus name – Amen!

  50. Rachel

    wow. you’ve definitely got me rethinking my trust system.
    still praying for you Phil. and as a fan I hope that your voice gets better soon because I love your music. but as a Christian I hope that in this time you will become closer to Jesus and that He will continue reveling these truths to you. may God Bless you.

  51. Alecia

    When I heard about your diagnosis I was moved so much to pray for you. I felt the Lord lead me to pray that you would embrace this time of “silence” to hear His voice & that He would put new songs in your heart about all you learn in the process about Him, His goodness & whatever else He reveals to you. To Him be the glory!

  52. Soya

    Your are God’s Most Precious Music Box, who through your musics are changing the hearts and souls of God’s children. Every time I hear your songs, I can’t do nothing but worship the The One Who Is Above All. Your songs have soooo much meaning that it opens my blind heart to God’s Amazing Love, And Grace, And Mercy And Everything. The enemy always tries with his little power to bring us down, but he doesn’t realize the Majestic, Infinite Power Of Our God. I know that God will bring you out of this with greater power to change the world through your Music just like how God Raised His Precious Son Jesus From the grave and Caused Him to Change The World. I thank God for the greater music that you will sing in the future and I am looking forward to buying all your future songs because I know it will be of greater insight. I hope you and your family are ready for the tremendous blessings that await your future.

  53. Rebecca Bell

    Your passion for Christ and His glory is beautiful! I am blessed to have discovered your music. Lord willing, I hope to attend one of your concerts before I move to Alaska in July. I am praying that your voice rehab is a time of miracles and that God will heal you completely. I have been touched by your journey and your willingness to share all that God is teaching you through this tough time. Please know that your music is a life changing blessing to so many.


  54. Amanda F

    Several weeks ago I was having a difficult time myself I prayed for God to show me what it looks like to trust in Him. Later that day I opened a CCM email to learn of your pending vocal cord surgery. I was led to your “thoughts on trusting” and I feel God led me there. We all go through storms and may not know why but I know God used you to reach out to others. Including me. I have been planning to send this message for weeks now. I guess everything happens when it is supposed to. Keep on singing but more importantly keep on praying and trusting God.


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