“BEING OUT OF COMMISSION THIS LONG HAS DEFINITELY GIVEN ME A NEW DEPTH OF GRATITUDE”

This coming weekend I will be doing my first string of shows since I had vocal surgery. Doctors and speech therapists have sent cameras down my throat to look at every angle of my vocal chords, and they have given me a clean bill of health. So thankful! There is almost no sign of the surgery, which is pretty rare. The last few months have been a roller coaster of fears, hopes and unknowns. Thanks be to God for His strength and love to carry me through this, and I am trusting Him now as I continue to move forward. From early on I was told that if I was to move forward with surgery there would be a period of rehabilitation and conditioning I would have to go through once healing was complete. I am in that period now. It feels MUCH better to sing, but it will take some time for things to settle and muscles to build back up. Your prayers for continued strength and progression through this would be very much appreciated.

Thursday is the first time I will be singing a full set on stage in almost 3 months. It’s going to be at a festival in Ohio called Alive. It’s a great event that I’ve been a part of before. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t a bit nervous, since the last time I sang a full set my voice was all but dried up. More than nerves though, I am beyond excited to lead a group of people in worship again. Friday and Saturday are both in Arizona. Prescott Valley and Tucson. If you live in the area I would love to see you there. Check out the “Tour” link on my page to see more details.

Being out of commission this long has definitely given me a new depth of gratitude for what God allows me to do, and a heart refreshed and excited for whats to come. For us humans, it’s amazing how quickly the extraordinary can seem ordinary. Especially for those of us who call ourselves followers of Christ. The story we build our lives upon, the promises we hold on to, the hope that drives us forward, the new life that has been given to us is all SO extraordinary. I want to live day to day in the wonder of it all. Can you imagine being so heavenly minded, so aware of Jesus, that there is no such thing as a “daily grind”. Where obligation is replaced by desire, mundane is replaced with passion, and duty replaced with love. One day that will be the only way that life is for the Christ follower, but until then we can at least practice. I say all this because these are some of the many thoughts and desires that this season has brought about in my heart. I got a short glimpse of what life would look like without ever being able to sing again, and I realized that all that we have can go as easily, or as difficult, as it came. Skills, opportunities, talents, abilities, our relationships, our voices, our lives. It’s our job to do the most we can with it while we have it. Life is too short for pride or selfishness or laziness or fear. Like the steam that rose up out of your coffee this morning and disappeared in moments, so are our lives compared to the great expanse of eternity. Obviously we will never be able to fully realize this kind of living while in this life, but it’s not a lost cause. Not by a long shot. May we take steps, day by day, towards this version of ourselves. For this who we really are. This is who we are made to be. One day soon we will look upon the face of our Savior, and what was once our ideal will forever be our reality.

-Phil